Maybe I don’t know the meaning of emotional or maybe the way I see it is different from the way you see it. When I look at the sky in the early hours of the morning and I can’t help gazing at its beauty then I tap those around me to look up but then they don’t see anything. When I walk past trees and see its beautiful budding flowers, I can’t help but take several other glance but every other person walk by and don’t give a heck. When I listen to some songs am so into the song that I can cry but someone else says change that song.
The other side is when people behave in some ways that is almost natural to them, I find myself making deductions and bringing conclusion to what I believe is the obvious but then others say why would I think like that? When I receive silence from a person for a long time I suddenly feel I’m not wanted and I want to keep my distance so as not to feel rejected but when the person realizes he ask why I would reason like that. Why I can’t face people is because I think they feel I have nothing to offer and when I’m forced to I think less of myself but some people tell me I’m awesome but then I feel it’s flattery, but they are dazed I feel like that. I have few friends because I think I matter to those ones and want to maintain my territory but others want to be my friends and they can’t understand why I am aloof.
When I think of this I wonder if I’m suffering from some self esteem complex or I am just being emotional. Do you see yourself in this picture or do you see anyone you know? Then I believe help is needed. What do you think, Self esteem complex or emotional?